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I am a recovering addict. My drug of choice was Oxycontin. I stumbled into that addiction about 10 years ago. It destroyed my life completely. It stole my soul. It took three times in rehab before I “got it.” That was about 4 years ago. However, I have relapsed many times. It is a daily struggle to stay clean. So, today, I choose not to use.

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  1. peglud permalink
    May 11, 2010 2:55 am

    I’m a member of your fan club. I will cheer you on. Thank you for taking the time to lead the way through recovery. Peggy

    • May 11, 2010 9:55 am

      Thank you for being a fan 🙂 I’m looking forward to hearing about your daughter’s progress and if I can be of any help, please let me know. It’s such a tough road but with lots of help I know she can do it. She’s so lucky to have a great support system. I believe that makes all the difference in the world. I would not be where I am today without the support of my family.

  2. May 12, 2010 5:49 am

    Knowing you have been to rehab and then ‘got it’ gives me so much hope. My sister Hannah has just left rehab for the third time and its not looking good..maybe next time! Keep writing.

    • May 12, 2010 10:01 am

      I pray your sister will make it out of this horrible disease. It took me hitting rock bottom more than once but I’ll never forget what one of my counselors said to me the third time at rehab. He said that he saw a change in me this time around. He thought I was a lot more humble. That’s because I had hit rock bottom (AGAIN) but finally realized my only hope was to get clean. I knew if I didn’t this time, I wouldn’t be alive much longer.

      • May 12, 2010 10:04 am

        Funny little note: I was so humble and ready to get help that last time that I actually drove myself to rehab! My mother says that she knew then I was serious about it FINALLY lol.

  3. June 5, 2010 12:39 pm

    Reality and the odds don’t look good for any of us… it’s not if but when, then we can understand Grace.


    • June 5, 2010 3:58 pm

      If it were not for the Grace of God, where would I be? I just thank the Lord everyday that he has allowed me the chance to live a sober life. I know there were many days when I was using that I should have died by overdose. I thank God that he has other plans for me and spared my life. And thank you for reminding me of this. 🙂

  4. theskinnyconquistador permalink
    June 30, 2010 10:17 pm

    You are very inspirational. and i love your blog entries.
    being human, admitting faults and lapses is what made you inspiring to me.
    keep it up, and don’t pop… 🙂


  5. July 1, 2010 6:24 am

    One day at a time. We all have our challenges. Stay truthful to yourself and you will do more right, more often, than not.

  6. July 1, 2010 1:13 pm

    I have a son who is a recovering drug and alcohol addict. He has actually gotton his act together enough to get himself into medical school,(although the thought of him with a prescription pad rather terrifies me). I really admire how you have fought this tough fight. Being where I am I will never judge you as I know first hand that it happens to the best people from the best families who you never would have imagined…
    Generally I believe and my experience has been is that people don’t judge. They accept you as you are today. Yesterday is past. Today is who you are.You are pretty inspiring and I am sure there are those who you are helping by this blog.
    I’m liking it very much.
    Keep it up!

    • July 1, 2010 4:46 pm

      I applaud your son in his recovery and accomplishment in school! That is amazing! Thank you so much for your supportive words :)… they touch my soul 🙂

  7. July 11, 2010 5:07 pm

    Hello! I really just wanted to join in with the chorus to let you know how much I enjoyed reading your work!

    Like yourself, my life seriously “jumped the shark” at about 12, and like you I sought to find a new identity in substance abuse.

    At 49, I’ve been sober for about 10yrs…My recovery continues to be based in dealing with the causes of my problems instead of merely managing the symptoms.

    • July 11, 2010 8:35 pm

      Thank you so much! I’m sorry that you have also experienced a similar path in life for it is certainly a difficult one. However, thanks for letting me know that we share some of the same challenges. I look forward to hearing more from you 🙂 God bless.

  8. July 18, 2010 12:51 am

    Are you familiar with Katie Granju? Her 18 year old son Henry recently lost his battle with oxycontin addiction. She is trying to raise awareness of this epidemic. Her son spent 9 months last year at 2 inpatient treatment programs but began using again within weeks of returning home. He was living on the streets when he was beaten and ODed on methadone at the end of April. He died a month later of complications. Tragic story

  9. July 28, 2010 4:11 am

    Hello Sunshine:

    You are a ray of hope. Thank you for sharing your experiences. I benefited. Your baggage is wisdom for people who embrace reality. Lighten your load. You’re helping people, and that is a good thing.
    I’m sorry people, life, and circumstances hurt you. It only made you stronger. Kiss it all.

    Haven’t we suffered long enough? You have a life to live and much to give. I appreciate it. Really, I do. Are we on the same page?

    If so, we have places to go and people to see:>)

    Vivian Dixon Sober

  10. August 12, 2010 5:17 pm

    BTW, my daughter’s drug of choice is Oxycontin.

  11. August 23, 2010 12:37 pm

    Im so happy to have found your blog!!
    I too was addicted to Oxys. I have been sober since Aug 25th 2006.
    It was the hardest thing to kick.
    I not only did oxys, but I also did tons of coke and percs.
    I dont know how Im still alive today as I would use this cocktail almost on a daily basis.

    Due to my drug abuse, I still struggle with so many issues. I developed a severe panic disorder and Im pretty much homebound.

    I have a fantastic support system that has helped me get thru it all.
    and yes, every single day is a struggle.


    • August 23, 2010 7:08 pm

      Thank you so much for the comment. Welcome and I hope to hear more from you in the near future. I’ll be catching up on your blog as well! Congrats on kicking the habit! 🙂 You should be so proud because this is an incredible accomplishment!

      • August 23, 2010 10:57 pm

        thank you 🙂
        I wish i could take all the credit…but on Aug 25th/06 after a 3 day binge, I took a pregnancy test and discovered I was pregnant.
        From that minute, standing in my bathroom with a pee test in my hand I have been sober.
        Its incredible that rehab stints and near ODs did nothing for me, but the thought of carrying my miracle baby was all it took.
        It wasnt easy. I had a horrible pregnant and had him 7 weeks premature. But for the most part he is a happy healthy and awesome little guy. I look at him and thank him every single day for saving my life.
        I guess I was waiting for a lifeline…and my son was just that.

      • August 24, 2010 12:25 am

        Wow! Your story is very similar to mine. I did get clean from the Oxys via rehab but turned into an alcoholic right after. It was only when I became pregnant unexpectedly that I put down the drink too. I didn’t think I could even get pregnant, had never been and had tried. My son, now 19 months old, saved my life as well. Isn’t motherhood the most wonderful blessing EVER?!

  12. August 28, 2010 3:30 pm

    Thanks for stopping by my blog about food trucks and pop-up restaurants! Wow – you are courageous to battle your addiction and to share your story to help yourself and others.

    • August 29, 2010 1:33 am

      You are very welcome 🙂 Great blog by the way. Thanks for your sweet words. I pray that I have or will help someone out there suffering with addiction. 🙂

  13. August 31, 2010 7:01 pm

    Dear One Pill,

    I found your blog through a comment you left on another blog I follow. I just finished reading “The Storm,” and I can’t wait to read the rest . . . however, I couldn’t find a place to leave a comment.

    I have a 23-year-old son who was using Oxy. He made his fourth year of sobriety this past June. Our oldest son (almost 30) also struggles with drugs and alcohol. My mom was an alcoholic, as well as her parents. I know the pain addiction causes for people, and my husband and I have a heart to pray for those affected by its tentacles in their lives.

    To that end, we started what we call Glass House Ministries. We’d love to add you to those we pray for, if you would give us that privilege. Here’s a couple links to give you a better idea of who we are:

    You are in our prayers,
    Cheri and Wayne

    • August 31, 2010 7:35 pm

      Cheri and Wayne,
      Thank you so much for your comment here, I’m so sorry you had trouble with commenting on my most recent post. I will check into that. I appreciate you sharing your story about your own family’s struggle with addiction. It is a road that I wish I could permanently close and spare anyone and everyone the risk of ever having to travel. I checked out your blog site for the Glass House Ministries and I’m so touched by what you are doing. Please do add me to your prayer list. I know from personal experience that prayer works and I truly appreciate your prayers. God bless you and your ministries.

      I have also added your link on my blog page. Keep up the awesome work! I look forward to hearing from you again.

      One Pill Away from Chaos

      • September 7, 2010 2:01 am

        One Pill,

        Thank you so much for adding our link to your blog page. I look forward to getting to know you better.

        Praying you have a beautiful week!


  14. September 3, 2010 11:13 pm

    Good luck to you as you battle on. Those same pills got a person very close to my heart; I hope that we get him back.

    And thanks for checking out my blog, Some Species Eat Their Young. I appreciate your kind words.

    Take care,


  15. September 22, 2010 4:47 am

    Hi, nice to meet you !

  16. Helga permalink
    December 15, 2010 2:46 am

    Been missing your posts… How is the new job going? Hope all is well. Just checking in.

  17. November 6, 2011 9:16 pm

    Hello One Pill,
    How are you?
    I’m hoping you can resume your posts soon.

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